I received a silver play button last week! For those of you who don’t know, the silver play button is an award that YouTube gives to creators who surpass 100.000 subscibers. And strange as it sounds, that is something I’ve done. In fact, I have over 140.000 subscribers by now (it takes them a while to make the button, haha)! I’m still baffled by how this could ever happen and that so many people would be willing to hit the red button and get my videos in their feed.
I let the moment I hit 100.000 subscribers go by relatively quietly, only mentioning it in a tweet or two. You may think this really weird, but for a while I felt like I don’t actually deserve the play button award, because I don’t get nearly as many views on my videos as some YouTubers do who have way fewer subscribers. I’ve always been a little confused by the 130.000 people that subscribed to my channel one day and then never clicked on a video again, haha! I think the subscribers that are actually active on my channel are closer to 5.000-10.000, which shows on my social media accounts as well. But then I thought HEY, who cares? I’ve been making videos since 2008, and there’s absolutely no reason why I should be embarrassed by the beautiful silver rectangle on my wall.
After all, I have the best set of viewers in the world. I actually believe that. I’ve never come across a channel where the comments were as nice, friendly and warm as they are on mine. Not only towards me, in fact what I love the most is when you guys talk to each other in the comments, answering questions and giving advice. When I make my videos I feel like I’m talking to a group of friends, and when I read the comments, it still feels like that. I cannot express to you how grateful I am for that.
When I look at my play button now (which happens a lot, as it’s front-and-center on my gallery wall), I think not of the mysterious busloads of people that subscribe and then lose interest. I think of you. The ladies whose names I know, whose photos I recognise from the comments and Twitter and Instagram. The ladies who come up to me and say hi at fantasy festivals and concerts. The ladies who went through the trouble of coming to see me at the meetups I’ve held. The amazingly talented ladies who’ve made artwork of me (still can’t believe that actually happens. wow.), and the ladies whose lives I’ve been able to impact in even the littlest way. All the photos I’ve received of your beautiful heads of hair, styled after my tutorials. All the messages and letters I’ve received that have brought tears to my eyes. Your constructive criticism and your words of encouragement. Thank you for everything.
Wow, I just realised this post came out as some kind of odd thank you speech, hahaha! Oh well, that’s what you do when you receive an award, right? 🙂
No matter what it actually means, to me, the silver play button is from you, for you, and about you. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Here’s to many years to come!